I continue to be amazed by how different this pregnancy is than the last one. Virtually every symptom is completely reversed, it's fascinating to me that this is the same body carrying out the same duty and it can be such a new experience (I expect that I will find this to be true when it comes to parenting as well... lots to learn, I know!).
One thing I'm not missing this time around is the heartburn. With Little Smith I carried really high, ridiculously high, and I think that contributed to the awful heartburn that kicked in early and kept going right up until delivery. This baby is actually very low, I feel her moving all the way in the bottom of my belly. The plus is zero heartburn, the downside is that I am gaining so much more weight all over. This is not a basketball in the belly pregnancy, my face and arms and legs (and many other places) are also expanding... and I'm feeling a little like a whale. That's not really like me. I'm not someone with body issues or who cares about being thin, actually I've always yearned for more curves. I guess it's just getting used to all the changes, I'm trying to make peace with my new and growing shape. I'm certainly not letting the feelings of chubbiness interfere with my chocolate consumption, still craving sweets like a maniac and fully indulging!
I keep day dreaming about what this little girl will be like and how our family will feel with another child in the mix. I'm ridiculously excited, but then I'll also see a flustered mother in the park with a newborn and toddler and can't quite imagine that in a few short months, that will be me. I start to try to figure out how I will tackle Little Smith's bedtime with a baby, or naps... we have such a set ritual. Then I realize that planning is ridiculous, we'll just have to see how it all fits and make it work. It's tough to let go!
This is a happy time. It's reassuring to feel the baby moving so often (it reminds me that I'm actually pregnant!), I'm still limber enough to feel comfortable and get down to garden or play with Little Smith, we have so many projects and plans to look forward to. I'm feeling very lucky, the second trimester really does deserve its good reputation.