fighting the urge to sleep with the television
I've been restless. I'm still not sleeping. I do not sleep, stringing together a couple of disconnected hours each night for weeks and weeks... or is it months? I think it is months. I had hoped spending some time at my mom's would give me some much needed rest, but even with the geese and birds and the clear country air my sleep wasn't great.
Instead I was pulled to catch up on my cable. We don't have good cable, and you never know when something really important is going to pop up on Bravo in the middle of the night. Even when my sweet husband finally convinced me to go to bed, I woke up again after a few hours and held my iphone in contorted positions trying to pick up some reception in my mother's very un-plugged house.
I had thought that browsing the internet or zoning out in front of the TV was helping keep me from getting too stuck in my head, but I'm starting to think that these glowing screens are actually the bulk of the problem. I've tried teas and vitamins and various remedies... but I haven't tried legitimately unplugging.
I know it seems easy enough to set myself a night without TV or internet, but I've tried and I always cave... or I get wrapped up in a book or a project that it even more captivating. I don't know how to meditate and it's too early for a family camping trip... and I'm tired. I look tired and just don't feel sharp.
Here's my plan for today; get outside and do as much manual labor on the garden as the kid allows, give myself one hour of internet/TV tonight once Little S is in bed (the husband is going to work late), and then I'm cut off. No screens, no projects... just some music and a few chores. I'll let you know how it goes!