July 28, 2013

At Rest

stormy skies watching the wind his daily project cat and belly garlic picked and cleaned (thank you boys!) breakfast picture book independent play keeping the bassinet warm working from home big belly

We are still here! I have been completely unplugged during this extended bed-rest, it's very disorienting. I know that it seems like orders to lie down all day would mean more internet distractions, but mentally I am finding that I need to put all of my energy towards entertaining Little Smith, monitoring my health, and getting through each day. We spend a lot of time reading, drawing, and singing in bed. I really can't say enough about what a trouper Little Smith has been. Each day he spends a good hour entertaining himself constructing giant 'choo choo trains', which means he lines up a collection of his toys, very precisely, end to end. I can hear him grunting as he concentrates, and when he's done he runs to show me his work with the most joyous expression of pride.

James has also helped out a lot; working from home, cooking meals, keeping up with the garden, buying me late night baked goods... lying down all day and doing nothing but eating can't be the best thing, but I've given up caring.

My blood pressure is awful. It's frighteningly high and I'm not even going to list the numbers... but so far my midwife and consulting doctor have continued to allow me bed-rest at home, with two non-stress tests and an ultrasound each week in addition to endless testing and blood work. It's fascinating to me that this is the same exact issue that I had with my last pregnancy and yet the course of action has been completely different. The more that I read about pregnancy induced hypertension, the more I realize that there really is not a clear medical standard, and it is a little stressful how much personal responsibility comes along with refereeing the conflicting opinions. 

Still, I feel like the waiting this time around has been the right choice. The plan is to get to 39 weeks, unless they deem my blood pressure too high or I have any new symptoms at any of these appointments... that means that I will likely be induced some time this week. I'd love to luck out and just go into labor instead, I've had some painful pre-labor contractions but they always subside eventually, so I'm not holding my breath (but still crossing my fingers!).

I do look forward to coming out of hibernation and catching up with everyone during 2AM feedings, but I suspect I will continue to feel very quiet in the next few days as we gear up to meet this little girl. If only I could find a way to ease my nerves and get a little sleep while I wait!

14 comments:

  1. All the best in your future childbirth and as usual, beautiful photos.. :)

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  2. I have been thinking of you Lilly and wondering how you are going so it great to see you again. The high blood pressure must be stressful but you sound positive and in control! Take care and best wishes for the days ahead x

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  3. Awesome pics, love the one of your belly and the cat! Do take care! :-)

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  4. Oh, good thoughts and prayers to you, mama. You are doing a great job keeping that girl baking, and I know you'll do great!! Lovely pictures, the kitty and your belly? A classic!

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  5. I was just starting to worry about you lol! Please take it easy, we are all sending good vibes!

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  6. Lilly, I have been so worried about you, thinking of you every day. I am sorry you are going through this again! Sending good thoughts all the way from St. Louis. I know it's going to work out just fine in the end. You are STRONG!

    Know that your blogging presence is missed, but we will all be here when you are good and ready. Take your time, and good luck! Can't wait to hear all about this new baby girl.

    Oh, and W looks very happy and relaxed, I wouldn't worry a bit about that one! :)

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  7. i've been thinking about you...i wondered whether little miss smith had made an appearance...not yet. hope you're resting well! x

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  8. thinking of you this week and will say a prayer. I love the train little smith made! and that he entertains himself while you rest, what a blessing!

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  9. Crossing my fingers for you for that natural progression of labor! Good luck over the next few days (and weeks!). XO.

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  10. It's Saturday morning and I'm thinking of you guys! Hope all is well!!!!!

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  11. A gorgeous collection of photos! These "belly shots" will make great remembrances for your little ones. :)

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  12. The belly and cat photo is so beautiful I can barely stand it. I can't believe she is out here now and maybe being tickled by those very whiskers.

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  13. Hi there! I am most curious to know where you bought your "open handle" flatware?!

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    1. It's from Crate and Barrel, about 10 years ago though so not certain they still carry it :)

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