February 20, 2013

Just Me


My morning has been simple and sweet. Wednesdays are usually brutal; I get home from teaching Tuesday night around 11PM, and then, because I am a serious insomniac, I have to 'unwind' with food, television or music, magazines... it's a late night and I always wake up the next morning feeling hung over from sleep deprivation. 

Today I opened my my tired eyes to the familiar cries of 'where'd mama go?', but I felt centered and clear headed. This sickness filled pregnancy has put everything into perspective and just standing up without making a dizzy sprint for the bathroom has me full of gratitude. I've always been a healthy and strong person, and not being able to count on my own body the past few months has been a frustrating but valuable learning experience. 

Breakfast was sweet potato pancakes and fruit, and not even the little dictator could complain about that. We spent the morning making some towers with blocks and played with cars and before I knew it, lunch time had arrived. I cooked soba noodles with carrots, tofu, and ginger... amazingly Little Smith ate that too, happily. I announced it was nap time and he scooped up all of his monkeys and headed to his room... it doesn't get much easier.

So I am celebrating this quiet time to myself, feeling healthier than I have in months and thinking about this new baby growing in my belly. I am feeling movement already, and at just 16 weeks today that really surprised me. Last time the placenta was in a funny place and I didn't feel anything until it was more somersaults than flutters. I have butterflies dancing in there now. I don't get much time to focus on being pregnant, but I'm so happy to be adding this new mysterious person to our little family.

And now it's time for my afternoon shift, I hope it's as easy as the morning.

19 comments:

  1. Love this post. It is so good to take care of yourself and cherish the sweet moments between us and our children as well as the short scraps of time we can find to ourselves. Here, at my house, I have to get up very early to find time to myself. I also wrote this post about trying to find 5 seconds of peace in the day. I know its tacky to post something you have written on someone else's blog, but here I am doing it anyway... have fun with your afternoon shift! :
    http://pomegranateandseeds.blogspot.com/2013/02/wishing-you-5-minutes.html
    you also might like this one as well, especially as you wait for your next little smith: http://pomegranateandseeds.blogspot.com/2013/01/sometimes-there-is-absolutely-no-more.html
    xxoo

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    1. Not tacky at all Rebecca, I'm looking forward to checking them out, thanks.

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  2. I always sleep too little, it´s not that much fun but I can´t seem to do anything about it - I´m just a night owl! You look lovely though, no dark circles around the eyes that I can get. :-)

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  3. You are so spot on about how not being able to rely on our bodies shifts perspective. I am so happy to hear that you are having a smooth and joyful morning with your little one (and littlest one on the way). Hoping your afternoon is as peaceful as your morning!

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  4. Growing a baby is such big business on your body! I hope your afternoon is as as easy as the morning, too. Kellie xx

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  5. oh bless you, my 2nd pregnancy was rough with head spinning and low blood pressure. try to just be and not to do too much! easier said than done, for a lady who is feeling sick, oh boy you do look so beautiful x

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  6. Glad to hear tt U're feeling better! Take care and enjoy your pregnancy days :))

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  7. I like the "mysterious little person" line. Isn't that the truth? So glad you are feeling better. There's almost nothing as irritating as sickness during pregnancy.

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  8. Could you be more beautiful? I think not. You are seriously glowing, but I think you always look that way! Beautiful skin, you lucky girl.

    Sometimes I think that those little ones test us and push us to the absolute limit with their behavior, then just when we think we can take no more, they turn back into the sweet little people we wish they were all the time! :) Glad you had a good day, and here's hoping for many more like it!

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    1. Oh thanks so much. I think I look tired and chubby (and I am a bit of both these days), but we're always our own worst critic!

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    2. First of all, you do NOT look chubby, but even if you did, you are pregnant, so PLEASE! But really, you do look beautiful.

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  9. So glad you are feeling better, and you look just lovely! Hope the rest of the pregnancy is smooth sailing, mama!

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  10. You are radiant! You always have really beautiful skin from what I can see in photos, but you seem to be extra glowey right now.

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  11. Your food sounds so good. Glad you are feeling well. :)

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  12. You look beautiful !

    Wishing you plenty of days like this.

    Enjoy the butterflies.

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  13. Glad to hear you're feeling better. You look radiant. :)

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  14. You're so pretty Lilly, we need to see your face more often. And Lauren is right - your skin is amazing.

    Don't you just love mornings (or dare I say, days) when everything just seems to work out? They are something to be cherished for sure!

    You're doing a great job growing your new little one.

    xo
    cortnie

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    1. Oh thank you Cortnie. I did snap this picture just because I realized there weren't many photos of me lately... a combination of short days, so often no one is around to take my photo in the light, and being too 'green' to want to step in front of the camera. I know that even if I don't think I look good, I'll want to look back on these days and be in a picture or two :)

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